Ok, your probally wondering what the hell i was thinknig when i said this, but, keep in mind that i was semi-sleeping, and it makes sence when you think about it; for a while. but becca was talking about a "sheep" when i thaught *humm, that dosent really soound right, one sheep?* so than i made a comment, one i probally shouldn't of made cuz i know Becca will never let me live it down.. i said "Isn't it one shoop?" dumb, but in the same way, logical.. to me.. but when you think about it, one shoop and 3 sheep, makes sence right? it sounds alot better too!! haha.. anyways, i just thaught i would let you decide on what one is better! leave comments and tell me what-cha think!!! A SHEEP OR A SHOOP?!!




HaHa, know what I think is just so damn funny? I think it is sooo funny when people are hypocrites. haha, ouu, this is deffenitly war, like an old friend of a friend of mine is a super mega ultra bitch, and so i told her so.. in her guest book, i didnt tell it to her face, just, in her guestbook... it was pretty funny, well, to me. and then one night, while i was acctually minding my own buisness, she just came right up to me, on MSN and told that i should grow the hell up and that if i had soemthing to say i should have said it to her face and all this poopy stuff. so then, the other day, while going trew HER blogg it said all this immature stuff about me and how i should say shit to her face, just so all her friends could see it (obviosly) and she could seem all cool. but youk now what?! she told ME to tell it to HER face, but then she goes and writes it on HER BLOG!!! honestly people... i will say it loudly and proudly I DO NOT LIKE KIMBER SHANNON. (shes the one that hates me and i said she should stop hanging off Trevor cuz my firend liked him, and i caled her a slut and she got pissed, but last year she did the exact same thing to me and she expects me to feel all bad that i said mean things.. well.. NEWS FLASH.. I DONT!!!) but anywas, i just think its really funny how she expects me to be all considerate and tells me to grow up?! but then she tells the whole world what she thinks about me.. (but dosent even say my name in it.. )so this is EXACTLY what she deserves... cuz all i did to her, was the same damn thing she did to me! HOW DOES IT FEEL KIMBER?! HUH?! dont like it do ya? well thne how do you think i felt last year? you callin me a slut... ME!?! haha... if people only knew the things i know about you, kimber, I would not be the one being called "slut"...




Well, its beena while. Not a lot has really happened lately, so I haven't had much to say. Besides the fackt that I am practical dying from fatigue. im not really sure how its possible because i missed 2 days of school this week and all i did was sleep. maybe its just my strange sleeping pattern. but who really knows right? cuz if i knew, i would change it, i hate beeing every so tired like i am now.... last night me and Becca walked around the west side for about 3 hours.. how fun! i called ben greens house right when i was walking by his house and told him to look out the window, and so he did and we talked to hime for a while, and i stole a peice of his deck.. :S i dunno why, it just seemed like a funny thing to do at the time.. i guess it kinda was.. sounds dumb now tho, but oh well.. im dumb so thats the way it is... Im going to a hockey game tonight "GO HVHS!!!" we are gonna kick some fredericton ASS!! haha! im so bored that im just rambleing and saying random stuff... Becca left me to go to feild hockey, and Alex went uptown for the day, which leaves me here to suffer alone, no becca to hang out with, no Alex to talk to... what a dull life.. i live off two people...sad... but thats ok cuz i love them both to death and then some... but yea... this is probally my most boring blogg anyone read... ill just put and end to your misery now..




I'm home sick again today, and i was kinda thinking... i wonder what people would think of me if they just read my blog, and didnt know me as a person.. what if they only read my poems or my resonings behind certain things? would they think i am strage? diffrent? deep? lame? smart? if you only read my poetry its just something i wrote, dont break it down, its not meat to be listened to (or read) that way... Poetry was not meant to be analyzed, it was meant to inspire without reason and touch without understading... it just isnt the same if you break it down and try to find all these meanng behind every word i use or every poem i write.. there is nothing behind it, it isnt a cover up, when i write the poems you see, I write them beause thats the way i feel at the moment... nothing more, nothing less... and if you think im strange or diffrent, deep, lame or smart then thats what you think, and i cant change it. and maybe you only think that cuz when you read what i write, you feel tottaly opposite and maybe it give you a total diffrent out look... but im not you, and my brain dosent function the way everyone eles does... im not your average teenager...








*sigh* i just got home. and i came home to a messy house full of leftover food from the turkey dinner my mother hosted earlier this evening. it smells amazing tho. smell of cooking turkey and apple pie fills my house, accomidating the giant tray of semi-warm turkey and pots on the soved filled with cold potatoes, broccoli and gravy. my house is warm and welcoming, it hasen't been this way in a while. i like it, i could get used to this. the whole drive home my sister and mother talked about the wonderful hockey coach she has and how nice he is, and how HOTT my mum thinks he is. which left me sitting silently in the back seet, thinking about my day. so i didnt feel like left out, i mean, i couldn't care less about Jessies hockey, i love to watch it, but my day was much more interesting. i went to Alex's! so your probally thinking "yea, interesting... for you, maybe" haha, well yea, we had fun, i love Alex's house. i met his mum, kinda... but yea, we went out and got chels and had a good time with her, even tho during our journy to the Irving the temperature dropped to about -100, but it was cool cuz chels is a stoned blonde who has conversations with no one on her cell phone... (she tryes, guys...) but shes awesome chels is. shes ma guurl. haha! but yea, hanging out with her and Alex was great, Being with Alex outta school was even better, gave us time to be alone, i really enjoyed it, tho being with Alex anywhere is enjoyable. Yup, im really lovin the life im livin now, i went trew my hard times, but now its all downhill and im riding the slopes... im glad my dad moved out now, the tention level around here has gone down quite a bit, and my friends are just, amazing. my move to HVHS was the best decision i ever made, and i have a Perfect Alex to top everything off! yup.. life is good.. oh my gosh, i was just talking to Alex and he reminded me of the cuttest thing that we saw. OK.. there was this mother with her baby (well toddler) and she had on a diskman er something or other and we walked by her a few times.. but when we last seen her, her baby had on the head phones and she was just kickin her feet and kinda dancing in her stroller. Wow it was cute. but i have really really really bad news...*takes deep breath* today, at Alex's, on the TV... i clown popped up!!::: wow i was scared. it was pretty funny tho, well, its funny now... wasnt then... but anways, this is getting pretty long so imma gonan stop here.. Cya!




I sit outside and watch the rain,
so clam, so peaceful.
I reach out and touch it,
so gentle , so real.
The smell
So sweet and mild
I wish is could be more like the Rain.

I was sitting outside this morning when it was raining, and that just jumped in my mind, so I had to write it down. Ahh the odd places you can get inspiration, but I do love the rain in all honesty. Anyways, please tell me what you think, it means a lot!




Not much is on my mind right now... im really tired, and thinking about my lousy advice giving... haha, now see, every has had a "crush" on someone... but how do you explain to them that sometimes stuff happens and sometimes it dosent... and even if it does, your not gonna marry each other (unless you are madly in love and all that nuts stuff). but when you think about it, nothing last forever anymore.. not evem marrage... so even if you do get married... chances are.. you'll get divorced, AFTER you fight constantly, rip your hubbys head off, tear you family apart, force the kids take sides AND put each other i dept...-trust me, i know how it is- SO in conclution... DONT GET MARRIED.. HaHa, im jk... my real conclustion is that some things take work and time and effort, dont just give up, it may be worth it...




I can't explain this feeling I have
when you leave
it makes me want you
even more
please come back
I need to tell you again
how much you mean
to me
I want to hear your voice
I want to kiss your lips
I want to whisper sweet words
in your ear
Maybe this is love
something I felt before
but never this strong
I need you
by my side forever and always
I'll never let you down
My love is yours to keep
My heart is yours for the taking
I love you

Yea... Not my best work, I just jotted it down while sitting in bed and then I got bored so I decided I would post it on my blogg so people could see that I have imperfections too... haha, im just kidding... I just put it here cuz I was bored and stuff... But.... There you go!! Tell me what you think!! I want to see your comments... On all my entries... thanks guys!!




My Favorite part of the day is the everyday, at about...3:30, now, it isnt because school is completly over for the day, but its because i got to interact with people who dont usually interact with me inside school... like today and yesterday, and hang out with this guy, who i think is absolutly the geekiest guy probally ever walked this earth, but he is the most funny guy guy in HVHS, and i dont joke... maybe its just because he looks funny, and sayd really immature things.. but i dont think that it would be possible for anyone to be near him at not smile, at least.. haha. i feel really bad about something tho, i dont know his name. i have been hangng out with his for the past two days, and i dont know his name... does that make me a bad person? haha...








Have you ever felt like you never fit in? Like, you have friends, and you have a lot, and your some what popular, and have a perfect boyfriend (or guy friend that you like), but you just don't fit in... I know I feel like that a lot, I have several groups of these really close friends, and there are about 6 of them that I generally hang out with, but they where always really close friends, I guess you could say all from the same "hood" so when im there, its almost like I don't fit in... When its only one or 2 or even 5 that are there its fine, but when all 6 are there, you just don't feel like you should be there. Its like they live their life on this big inside joke. And if you ask what they are laughing at, they reply with their sheepish "its a long story" yea.. I bet. Being left out of still little things like that just make you feel like you don't belong, like you don't fit in. And its the worst feeling. Who knows how to explain it? Because I cant put it in to words... Its like, your happy your there, but at the same time you wish you weren't, like, your having a lot of fun, but at the same time you want to run and call your mum to pick you up. I love all my friends, to death, and id go the length on the earth for them, but I be around them all at once... And I know that that's the way a lot of my other friends feel about it to... I haven't been u there is so long, and I do miss it, but I don't miss the feeling I get when they cant explain to my why they are all laughing, or who this person is, or who that person is.... Its so frustrating...




Have you ever notcied how there is always this one kid that EVERYONE picks on? maybe hes/shes fat, or ugly, or just..unpopular.. but they is always someone saying something about them? but you dont really want to say anything cuz you dont want to be in their position, so you just stand there, with your "buddys" as they talk about someone who can hardly defend themsleves. we all do it. we all make fun of people, and people make fun of us... and yea, maybe it doesnt seem like a big deal now, and sometimes it ever does turn out to be a big deal... or even anything bigger then just making fun of people, but that leaves a mark, maybe not always somewhere you can see it, but its there, for some people, its not even a deep cut, but its remembered. i seen a play once when i was in grade 7 i think, and it was about this girl *Anne who had alot of really good friends, but her best friends of all where *Susie and *Jackie. thye met in kindergarden, and they where like.. the "trio" "best friends fer life" and so on and so forth... but when Susie gets in more involved other things and makes new friends, things change... and Jackie donsn't like it, so she constantly pick on Susie... they are on the bus and Anne and Jackie are sitting behind susie, and Jackin will pull her hair, tap her on the shoulder, call her dumb and stupis and ugly... just for kicks, right? until Susie get really annoyed, alright, shes pissed, and she turns around and yells "STOP IT", well Jackie jus tthinks thats helarious, meanwhile Anne is seeing this whole thing, and doing NOTHING besides shitting there and watching it. well when those "Just for kicks" turns out to be a little more then that in high school, i bet Anne wish she wouldnt said something, because all along she knew this harassment was gonig on, and just always..sat there. anyways. by the end of the play Anne and Jackie go t to bathrrom to find Susie there, and Jackie just dosent wanna stop the harassment, shes said a few mean words, and when she got no response from a timid Susie, she gets really ticked and trows a punch, sending Susie to the groud, crying. Jackie bends down and pick her up by the hair, and punches her again, this time striking her in the stomac... Susie is left complety defenselessexcept for one thing.. Anne.. she stairs up at Anne, hoping that somehow, she will stop it... but Anne dsoent want to be in her positionso she says nothing.. and does nothing. Just stnads there in awe while Jackie then decides to drang that helpless little Susie into the bathroom stall... where she bashes her head against the seat and dunks her head in the toilet water. when she is finally satiffied the damage she did.. she just casualy walks out of the bathroom...leaving susie to suffer there untill the next person comes in... alomst like nothing happened... and so does Anne... when you think about it like that.. who is just as guily as the ones performing the act?