Well Holy Cow, why is it that im ALWAYS on the computer but i never post? i duno either.. kinda gay.. haha, nothing is really that exciting and new.. and i dont really have much to say, im sure you guys are just having a bunch of fun reading my blogs lately, they dont really say much. i sorta need insperation.. humm.. well, i do have somthing cool, i went to toris:) a long time ago, but it was a lot of fun, and i havent posted since, but you can check out Toris blogg for pics ( www.afraidtofly.blogspot.com ) and for christmas i got the best prsent... the Bryan Adams CD.. and i want to post one of the best songs:) here goes nothing...

It still feels like our first night together/ Feels like the first kiss and/ It's gettin' better baby/ No one can better this/ I'm still hold on and you're still the one/ The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get/ Only feels much stronger and/ I wanna love ya longer /You still turn the fire on/ So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't/ You're the only one I'd ever want /I only wanna make it good /So if I love ya a little more than I should Please forgive me /I know not what I do /Please forgive me/ I can't stop lovin' you /Don't deny me/ This pain I'm going through /Please forgive me /If I need ya like I do/ Please believe me Every word I say is true Please forgive me /I can't stop loving you/ Still feels like our best times are together/ Feels like the first touch /We're still gettin' closer baby/ Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on /You're still number one /I remember the smell of your skin/ I remember everything/ I remember all your moves/ I remember you/ I remember the nights, ya know I still do /One thing I'm sure of /Is the way we make love/ And the one thing I depend on/ Is for us to stay strong/ With every word and every breath I'm prayin' /That's why I'm sayin'... /So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't /You're the only one I'd ever want /I only wanna make it good/ So if I love ya a little more than I should/ Please forgive me /I know not what I do /Please forgive me/ I can't stop lovin' you /Don't deny me /This pain I'm going through/ Please forgive me If I need ya like I do
OMG, can it get much better than that?! If i were to write a poem about my feelings that would mostly be it! :):) ... Love you Alex (im guessing eveyone knew i didnt have those feeling for anyone eles other than him.. haha)




I'd like to start off, by saying thanks Kat! i heard a lot about you, and know who you are, and i do read you blogg when i get the time... so.. THANKS!
Anyways im sorry i fibbed about posting, Haha... i never really got around to it, the business if christmas has kciked in i guess, but its days like today when you wonder where the acctaul day went.. i mean, all i did was sit at home, then at beccas home... then.. home again... haha, i did in the end manage to get my ass out of my PJ's- but only because my grandfather was coming over to drop off presents, i swear, cuz if it was anyone eles, i would still be in my PJ's eating stale chips, listening to the radio and laying in bed, wishing that someone might call and ask to hang out.. but, no... good ol' grampy- made me get all pretty.. god damn, oh well, at least i dont have to take a shower tomorrow!:) (OH DONT EVEN SAY YOUR GROSSED OUT... We all do it....)
OKAY, in other news... me and mum are getting along a lot better now, no arguments ... we dont talk as muchg as we did, i mean, tention is still pretty high between us, but it will all be okay once i get to ease my mind a little better (*Cough*Alex*Cough*) oh yea, one onther thing grampy pulled.. a good old "candace-cant-go-to-alexs-cuz-im-coming-ever :) .. what a great guy.. haha, im kiddin, i love grampy he just dosent know whats on with my life, we dont talk that much. anyways... things are going better, a bunch.. anyways, i was going to write a poem in here, but.. cant find my book.. DAMN.. ohhh well.. ill psot again soon, thanks for reading:)




Well, getting to sleep after a good fight with your mother is not always as easy as everyone thinks *smirks* untill i read an article on "how to fall asleep". it was i wicked article in the november issue of Cosmo. but i deffinetly loved this stratigy-number six.
"Fall-asleep strategy 6
Get Busy
The hormones produced at orgasm cause relaxation that often leads to sleep, according to Patti Britton, a certified sex educator in L.A. So if your guy is lying beside you, wake him up for a quickie. If you are solo or just dont want to rouse your man, try masturbating while indulging in a sexy fantasy"
.... now, i dont see why i cant fall asleep!!! haha jk
anyways, yesterday wasnt at all that fun, i went to breakfast with my mum and Alan at Coras, a strange-how should i say it-akwardness kind of lingured between us, but how could it not... we havent talked in a condusive order in weeks. its not like it really matters.. i mean, all shes doing is working and leaving it all up to me... some more. its like shes scared of her own responsabilities and leaves them up to me.. its petrifying.. but ill have to put up with it
-today im not doing much either, still locked in this house for like, ever. im gettin gmore and more drawn away from my family, all i do is stay in bed. i hardly eat, and i dont get out... i just, sleep, and go on the computer. anyways.. thats my days... ill post again tomorrow to tell you how the rest of today and tomorrow went..
-Candace





Hey Guys!! Sorry I haven't posted in so damn long, I have been SUPER BUSY like, to the max. Shit, its gonna feel soooo good to let this one out. (PAW thanks for being concerned on where my great writing skills have gone haha, jk) Ok, well, it kinda all starts with one school day that i missed... And missing a math test, so she asked me to come in to do a make-up test cuz, i mean, clearly, i missed it... so i go in and, shes not there... so i left, obviously. So she got very upset about me "not showing up" and gives me another chance, but just like a date... "If he blows you off once, don't go running back, NO MATTER WHAT" (any girl would know that one) but apparently, my fat ass teacher- who has obviously never had a date blow her off... Well, actually hes probally never even had a date before- didnt really appreciate that one. so she gives me my test back, with a 0... and tells me to sign it, SIGN IT?! How lame... when i came to school back on ... umm monday without my test signed she decided to call my mum and put me on step one. well let me tell you, my mum was not to happy about that and i got grounded for a week, and while trying to defend my piont of view i got grounded from the computer for a week and locked in my house for... uhhh.. TOO LONG!! anyways, after my mum calls B and realized that what i was acctaully telling the truth she starts RIPPIN at mad. fat ass ... so i managed to mosey my way outta getting on step! Yay!! but im still grounded ... well, i have to stay in the house till nest week, ill keep you posted on each wicked day i have sitting at home this week, PROMISE... Scouts Honors!:) but anywas, my mum is now working 3 jobs! Her day job-Lorne Middle School and now 2 part time jobs- Reitmans and the rink. which, if you can put two and two together you could figure out that i have to act the mum even more AHHHHH im practicly pulling my hair outta my head here people!! Alan seems to be getting more and more... umm, i cant think of the word, annyoing, needs more supervision like by everyday. So i continue acting the mother at home, and i get soooo stressed out that school work is just... just... nothing. i dont do it, look at it, think about it... i have to much going on in my mind to do it. so another call home, more ground-ation.... SWEET *grunt* and Mrs C was gonna call home too, but im a good girl (or just manipulitive (oh yea, for thoses who dont know, Mr Maloney calls me that.. and hun?)) anyways.. she didnt call THANK GOD! or off would go my head, not to mention socail life.
Oh yea, did i tell you that all my mum and i have been doing is fiiighting?! which, im guessing you can tell what happens.. YOUR RIGHT.. GROUNDING!! ok, when you put all this together, you can imagine what my socail status is.. like.. -49870270398698230 if thats even possible. AND to ever so greatly add to all this... i havent has alone time with Alex in weeks! WEEKS!! GUYS!!! SYMPATHY!! PLEASE!! Im dieing here without alone time with him... no, i lied, im already dead!! SHIT! anyways, ill keep you posted on my lonely days at hime all week, promise, thanks soo much for writing comments and making me realize how long ago my last psot was (who are you?! LEAVE YOUR NAME!!) Thanks dude(ette)s

Candace!! OBVIOSLY!!