With arms in the air, we surrender to this feeling which leaves us feeling like pre-schoolers at 6am watching their favorite cartoons.
our true colours are blinding all who fail to understand, but we dont care..
our lives slowly merge as we make sense of true love.
and more than once have we become one, realizing that this is right, and if this is what is the happen for the rest of our lives then so be it.
and untill it is legal to run naked down the streets yelling that i love you, i think ill just keep both aspects between the two of us.

i dare them to try and understand.

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"i dont understand" you told me, and began to cry.
i decided there was nothing left to do but to show you.

with your arms around my waste we moved to the sounds
of ocean winds and the beat of our hearts.
overcast skies came into play, untill we were dancing in the rain
and we didnt even care untill the lightning struck.

"thats what its like, to be in love."



I walk away from the car, where I had jus taken the cold beer from, and sprung open the cap. You would be so mad if you saw me drinking.
I have to poise of an elephant. unamused, angry, and and greatly unimpressed by the whole party scene.
flames danced 10 feet high, and still, I was chilled.
a dark figure approached, and sooner than I could avoid it, he graced my lips with a loving kiss that lasted much to long for a stranger.
"who is this?!" I asked, startled, and mildly amused, as if I had to ask. No one has ever kissed me with as much passion as you.
taking a quick step back, I was reassured.
you were smoking, and I snubbed you. I hate kissing you when you smoke.
I held you close regardless, and smiled "what are you doing here?!"you flicked your cigarette away.
I wouldn't change it for a thing.
you simlpify and complicate my life all in one swoop. Its here that I realized that yes, I can live without you, I just don't want to. Not now. Not ever.

"I respect how in love you guys are" a drunken friend howled.
we smiled despite the awkwardness of ex-girlfriends and booze.
they know as well as we do that this is not a one night stand.
they know that this is for keeps.
and soon enough, we'll understand too.



just one of those days,
one of thoses days i wish i was being hit by a car.



multiple times.



I pondered tonight what it was i felt for you. Strong, real, serious, funny. Love. Ungoldy smiles trapped themselves between my nose and chin, and i didnt even bother to try and chase them away, not this time.
Does the feeling wear thin, love? will you ever forget me, dear? will the sweet words of teason continue till to day we die, sweet one? Im ignorant of love, i fear. i cannot even begin to grasp the feeling, the emotion, the passion(even when i swear i could, while we steam up the back windows of you car) or the beauty.
this is something bigger than our bodies, love. this is who we are. this is who we are meant to be, and i dont even know what that is, and nor do i care as long as its with you. you could vigorously betray me and i would run into your arms a million times over again, confessing my love and that i forgive you. and i would.
Is this how it is meant to be, love? you and me. always defending what is real and what is true and pure. our own feelings? they dont understand, you see? they dont see what it is that you could possibly want from me. but they dont know, love, do they? they dont know what its truly like. we know. we are living it, i do so believe.
We can make it, love. till the end of time and back again, i bet. flaming passion that never goes out. can you handle it, love?
And when i ask you why your upset, i expect honesty. and thats all ill ever give you. honesty. i wil cry on your shoulder, and want you to cry on mine.

you deserve all happiness in the world for simply being who you are, love. you are the closest thing to perfection. and these feelings are incredible, we are in to deep, but we thank the lord we can swim.
and love, dont ever forget that these are true feeling, not the be mingled with, not to be toyed with.



you told me "even being silent with you is better then talking to anyone eles"
thats the way i understand it now.
thats the way i know i love you.
"do you even know what love feels like?"
"i do now"
and i do now.



You were inapperciably annoyed by the fact that i knew all the words to all the songs on the radio, and not your favorite bands, but i kissed you, regardless.
A smile creeped up, and curled the corners of your lips, and your eyes held mine in such a way that i fell in love with you all over again.
moving closer to you my heart begins to suge, and scecrete a curious amout of lust.
I can hear it my ears.
I can feel it in my chest.
you run your hand through my hair, cup my face, and gently, you kiss me again.
I pull away to stare into the bright blue, try and read your thoughts...
wondering if youre as happy as i am.
Youre eyes tell me yes, so I continue what we started.

We're giving 'hump day' a whole new meaning.



And the result of our sweet kisses
and whispered "I love you's"
are steamed windows,
the outline of drawn-on hearts,
and a case of untenable butterflies.

If there is such thing as perfection, im quite convinced that this is it.



my insides come flowing out again, as i kneel over the toilet bowl.
i dont know what to say... and i dont know how to feel.

and again.

and im selfish for thinking this has anything to do with me,
it most certainly does not, but this is my sole reaction.
and tears run down my face for something i dont even understand,
or even want to think about.

and i rub my eyes dry, and try to console myself of something that makes no sense,
and dosent have anything to do with me, and probably never will.
splashing water on my face i look in to the mirror and realize im not at all who i though i was.
and you are not at all who i though you were... and to be honest i dont know if its good or the bad.
and i wish i could make everything just disappear for you, and make things right, "the past is nothing to dwell upon", i wish i could tell you and believe it myself.

and again.

completely blinde sighted with fear, i peel myself off the bathroom floor, and desperately search for the right words that may make things better for you.
but for once, nothing.
nothing in my whole mind would be the right thing...
and i run away from the screen that read the words you had told me at 12:34am.

and again.