Feeling left out
Thursday, October 07, 2004 @ 6:22 PM
Have you ever felt like you never fit in? Like, you have friends, and you have a lot, and your some what popular, and have a perfect boyfriend (or guy friend that you like), but you just don't fit in... I know I feel like that a lot, I have several groups of these really close friends, and there are about 6 of them that I generally hang out with, but they where always really close friends, I guess you could say all from the same "hood" so when im there, its almost like I don't fit in... When its only one or 2 or even 5 that are there its fine, but when all 6 are there, you just don't feel like you should be there. Its like they live their life on this big inside joke. And if you ask what they are laughing at, they reply with their sheepish "its a long story" yea.. I bet. Being left out of still little things like that just make you feel like you don't belong, like you don't fit in. And its the worst feeling. Who knows how to explain it? Because I cant put it in to words... Its like, your happy your there, but at the same time you wish you weren't, like, your having a lot of fun, but at the same time you want to run and call your mum to pick you up. I love all my friends, to death, and id go the length on the earth for them, but I be around them all at once... And I know that that's the way a lot of my other friends feel about it to... I haven't been u there is so long, and I do miss it, but I don't miss the feeling I get when they cant explain to my why they are all laughing, or who this person is, or who that person is.... Its so frustrating...
