So I was looking around for inspiration, and to my surprise, I found nothing. I think its safe to say that I now have writers block. I read an incredibly funny rant on how people should just leave the sentence "How are you" out of you vocabulary. It just screws everyone up and makes you feel like an idiot when you don't ask it back because your to busy thinking about how to word what you about to say next and forces you to forget to ask it back, and so mid-way through the conversation you realize that you didn't ask it back and feel like a huuuge asshole, and you do. so next time your talking to that person you go completely out of you way just to say "How are you" and they make the same mistake you did, and don't ask it back and you just like.. "maaan, did I ever fuck that up" haha, and this "Two hours later you're in a corner trying heroin for the first time because you heard it makes things easier" haha, quote from the place of got the inspiration, I thought it was funny.

anyway, in all serious-ness. I was talking to my cat last night.. (haha.. so, here comes the searches part) well i was really actually talking to my cat and i asked her all about life and love, im not sure what i was expecting from my cat but you know.. And I thought I had it all figured out, then I lived another day. I though that you just put a smile on and you live it like you love it, then you realize that soon enough, your gonna die.now.. i cant even explain anything, seeing as at the time i was half asleep and it DID make perfect sense at the time. I just said, "you cannot find the light in the dark, you cannot find happiness in the sadness, you cannot feed your hunger if you do not have love" what is with me and everything I say sounding so Cliche? Anyways. After it all you end up getting you heart pulled out you asshole and crying yourself to sleep for weeks upon weeks faithfully. Case and point. Men. Now I know that all men are not driven by testosterone, but for the most part, they are. there is no denying it. if you have a nice booty then you will not get the respect that you deserve, need i remind you pretty girls do have feelings? and, when you thought you have found the one who respect you, you end up finding out that their first intentions were only to get in your pants. I guess no one really realizes that altough you are considerd a "pretty girl" you feel just as much pain as the ones who are not. if you are not a pretty girl, you may not be able to find someone but when you do, your gonna know its true, and your gonna know its sinsere.. but say when a "pretty girl" finds someone that they think cares, that they think wants you becasue not only your looks but because you are smart, and kind, and cerdious, and just a down right good person, then you have sex, you get an amazing feeling, a specail connection, love, lust, passion and commitment all bundled up into one, and its amazing... but its all a show, all the nice things ever said.. all the compliments, all the feeling that you spilled. AND IT SUCKS!!!!!!! *Pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything, pretty sure she'll figure out what his intentions where about* the way- sugarcult.

WELL THEN.. So much for writers block..