I think about this all the time, Its like this sittuation that is permanitly nailed into my brain, not like i asked it to be there, but it is and there isnt much i can do about it. I wonder all the time if you changed? Are you more beautiful and more irrisitable than before? Im scared to find out. Becuase theres somthing inside your smile that makes me want to melt. Its something in your facial expressions that make my innocence leave me completly. Its the words that come out of your mouth. Theres somthing in the way you smell that makes all my fears go away. Everytime you move is like a step closer to what i know is about to happen. Its like you know what you're doing to me. You know that im about to give in to everything i fear and everything im unsure about... And i give it all to you. Im handing it to you on a sliver platter, and you are more than satified, i will not lie, in the end i find myself more than satified too. so tell me when you come in for me again, will it be better then the last time? is that possible, for it to be better then the last time?... well if it is id like you to show me.

Anywyas, i had a beautiful chat with a wonderful young lady of witch i have about 3 tons more respect for now then i did before.. if that is possible. We both have the same problems and seem to have the same fears. Im so glad that i had an acctul talk with her, it let out alot of my pain and made me feel alot more comfortable to know that there is acctally someonewho feels the same way i do. So, yea.. i dont want to mention name because i dont want people drilling questions on her.. or on me. So, thank you.. for you know, the nice talk and the comfort... Thanks for the compassion, respect and understanding:) Love, Candace

Chow!