Well first of all, she wondered, what am I doing at the biggest party of the year? And second of all, If I hid in the bathroom I'm sure no one will notice, I mean, this is a huge party.

That's mostly why I don't go to parties, She continued to herself, The snickering. The name calling. The laughing and pointing. And then knowing it's all directed twards you, Ouch.
See, this is how it is. If I wasn't here people most likely wouldn't be thinking about me, so I wouldn't have to come up in their conversations. And even if I did, I wouldn't hear it. And since im here, and if I hear it it, I'll hide in the bathroom and scream at the lop of my lungs, She promised herself, Scream at the top of my lungs, and beg whomever watches over me and this world to save me. Not only from the sinickering and name calling and whatever but from the possible attempt of self-mutilation, and the sick thoughts that are running through my head.

As she walked into a crowed room she seen no familiar faces, well, except for a few girl who go to her school and she didn't pay much attention to those girls anyway, and plus, she doupted they even liked her.

Then, in the corner of her eye she cought sight of someone she really did not want to see, Andrew, only cuz everytime she looked into his eyes she got the worse case of butterflies in the world.

Oh, I swear, I you let it so he does not see me, I will start believing in you, God.......

OH FUCK!! Come on! this is a fuckin' joke, She swore to herself as she was turning around trying to avoid Andrew. He spotted her and was walking over to her. Although she knew that the whole reason she had come the the party was to see him. It's kind of a long story about how she met him, all she knew is that she would have killed herself in front of him if that would at least catch his attention for a few seconds. But the thought of acctally like, talking to Andrew, almost made her faint. Not that she was so obsessed with him that she couldn't talk. Just, well, she didn't really know why. But she did know she was in "like" - at least- with him.

Just then she heard her name from the far side of the room.

"Kim!!!"

She looked around. No one.

"Kiiiiiiiiiim!! OVER HERE"

There, staning on a table trying to get her attention was her newest friend, Paul. Although Kim hadn't known Paul for a long time she felt as if they has been friends since they day they were born. Kim could tell Paul anything and everything that was troubling her, and he always knew what to say. It was comforting for Kim to know that someone was always there for her.

Thank GOD!! Thought Kim as she walked across the room to Paul compleltly avoiding Andrew.

Paul looked no diffrent then he did any other night, which was fine by Kim, even a little comforting, but at the same time made her feel like a fool. Kim had spent HOURS in front of the mirror trying to get the right "look". And in the end she ended up wearing way to much makeup and way to little cothing.

"You look GREAT!" Paul said loudly over the music.

"Thanks, Paul. You too" Kim said blushing.

Paul asked Kim about how she gotto the party, and talked about how he got lost on the way there. Casual conversation.

Kim interupted.

"So where can a girl get a drink around here"

Paul looked at Kim with that protective "I'm-your-big-brother,-what-do-you-think-you're-doing-drinking?" look.

"Don't look at me like that!" protesed Kim, "You're up here drinking your face off and I cant have a beer?"

"Sorry," Said Paul "Up the stairs and the first door on thr right is the bathroom, the tub is full. I can go with you if you want."

"I'm fine," Kim responded, smiling "I'll be right back." she finished as she turned and walked away, then she lifted up the back of her skrit for a joke, showing Paul her bare ass. Kim had never seen Paul laugh so hard.

When Kim was out of ear shot, not that she would have heard him say anything over the music anyways, Paul turned to his friend and wisperd loudly into his ear "She's great, right?"


Kim ran up the stairs as fast as she could, looking at everyone she passed. There was a couple in the hallway praticly sucking eachothers faces off. The girl's back was against the wall and one of her legs was wrapped around her boyfriend -assumingly- waist. Their hands were everywhere.

Whatever works. Though Kim, then laughed out loud as she turned into the bathrooom.

"There's that smile."

Kim face dropped, it was Andrew.

Kim walked by as if she was uninterested, but she was nearly having a heart attack on the inside.

"Hi." she said brushing his shoulder and reaching into the tub full of ice for a beer. She struggled with the cap for a while and then Andrew grabbed the bottle from her, opening it with ease.

"I could have done it myself." Kim said trying to play it cool, rolling her eyes.

"I doub it." replyed Andrew

Kim took the first big drink of her beer, then jumped up on the counter in the bathroom. Andrew looked at her, he looked confused.

"What?" asked Kim then took another drink or her beer.

"Nothing, you look really hot, thats all" Andrew said flirtingly

"Thanks, right back atcha" she said raising her beer. Their bottles clanked together.

Kim and Andrew sat in silence for a while as people came in and out of the bathroom. Kim was already on the second beer when Andrew asked what she was doing there.

"Same thing you are, getting drunk." said Kim, laughing. She had drank her first beer way to fast and was starting to get slap happy. She didn't care, and took a big drink of her second beer.

"Hey," Kim said out of the blue "Do you know where I could go or who I could ask for some hard liquor? Beer's good, but vodka's quicker."

Just then Andrew reached into his jacket, witch kim had though he had forgoten to take off at the door, and pulled out a pint of half drinken vodka.

"I already started," said Andrew holding up the bottle making it obvious "catch up!"

Kim swipped the bottle from Andrew with a big smile on her face "Thanks" she finished the little bit that was left in her beer and then took a swig from the half full plastic vodka bottle. She swallowed hard, Andrew laugh at her. Kim quickly took another drink, then desided to chase it with a beer. Andrew opened the beer bottle for her, again. Kim then took yet another drink from the vodka bottle, swallowed it, then reached for her beer and took a big gulp of that. Kim repeated that proceadure sevreal times untill the bottle of vodka was done.

There was no talking when Kim was drinking but now seemed like a good time for Kim to talk, mostly becuase alcohol made her think it was a good idea.

"Why did you give me that?" Kim said looking through the empty vodka bottle.

"Mmm-I-dunno" Andrew said squishing all his words together.

Kim threw the bottle at Andrew, it hit him in the stomach and fell to the gound, Kim laughed hystaricly.

"Let's go dance" Kim said to Andrew jumping off the counter and grabbing his hand.

Kim and Andrew both sumbled down the stairs to the living room. Andrew stopped and stipped off his jacket and threw it on the coat rack on top of what seemed to be a zillion other jackets.

Kim pulled Andrew to where she wanted to go. She spotted Paul and yelled to him "Ahoy, Captain" waving fanticly. Paul came right over and looked at Kim.

"How much did you drink?!"

"Enough" laughed Kim still holding onto Andrew.

"That's right, enough" Paul said looking at Andrew.

"We are going to dance, Paul, Okay?" said Kim looking at Andrew.

"Whatever" Paul said walking away

Kim stuck her tounge out at Paul, he was just mad cuz she was dancing and he wasn't.

Paul went back other to where he was before and said to his friend "That Andrew is bad news for her, keep an eye on them, I have to go get another drink"

Kim and Andrew went to the middle of the room and began to dance. Closely. Andrew placed his hands on Kim's hips and ran then upwards over she stomach and ribs then back down again. Kim placed her hand on Andrew's thigh seductivly... drunkly. Andrew wipped Kim around and looked her. He put his hands on her back then moved them downwards. Kim smiled, then tripped. Andrew caught Kim and then pulled her in close and kissed her. Kim hesitated at first, then she kissed Andrew back and put her hand on his face. Then Andrew pulled back and looked at Kim.

"Wanna go upstiars?"

Kim smiled boldly and shook her head yes, not knowing what regrets would come after.