Yes, I am going to be okay, I do know that. From the bottom of my heart I know that. But it dosen't mean im over you. Well, unless you want me to be, then I can fake it even more although I must say I'm quite sick of faking my feeling and hiding it all inside untill I get home and I am able to cry alone in the bathroom as a hang over the sink and splash cold water on my face thinking that maybe it will like, wash away the pain and fears the same way it clears my face of the makeup I put on just to impress you. But it dosen't. And I will never be enough to impress you.
I don't need to be fixed, I am not broken... I am going through a normal part of life.. that sucks might I add. But I don't need your fake sypathy. I'm sick of all the fake-ness. Your fake caring, your fake lust, your fake happiness. For I know when you looked into my eyes you were wishing I was "her". Well Guess what? Im not "her", and I'm never going to be. But I could have been so much better then "her" and you will never EVER know. I'm done with you and everything you have to offer, cuz the only thing you had to offer me was a bunch of lies and a map to a one way street.
Im gonna be okay, Because what eles i realized today was that I have tons and tons of friends who mean more to me than my life itself. And I'm gonna get over you and I will find someone eles. And it will be everything that you could never offer to me.