This is great. This is fucking great. Haha. You guys are gonna love this one. Only because I know you love hearing about my emotional agony.

He did it again. He did it a-fucking-gain. It hurts you know, to see him with anyone eles... no matter who it is, and it hurts ever more to imagine that person being my best friend. This shit is so Jerry Springer. Pulling the same stunts he did on me to my best friend. She's smarter than you think she is, "you". She would never go for you after what you did to me. I wouldn't let her.. the only thing that would hurt me more then what you did is if you did the same thing to my best friend. That would kill me, that being a lie cuz I'm already dead. Just as if using me wasn't enough, you have to do it to my best friend too. I love her with all my heart and the last thing I'm gonna let happen to her is you. And to think I bragged about it. When it was going good, I bragged more than somone should brag in a life time. You were nice, you were sweet, you were good at the things you did. Then I found out that you were good at hurting people too. Filling in the empty space that you have by sleeping around. In the end, when you look at yourself in the mirror (witch i can't imagine doing if i was you) do you want to scream? Do you want to punch the face you see stairing back at you? The one thats living an empty life of one night stands and broken hearts. You ARE living an empty life, and in the end you are only hurting yourslef. Yea, you hurt me, and many other people,... you admit to that, but we will get over it, and we will be used again its more than likely.. thats life, but at the end of the day when you take a step back and look at the big picture you will see all those people that you hurt, you changed their life, you broke their trust along with their hearts. Maybe this is all a big joke to you, and it seems like it is becuase you just keep at it, but to other people this is not funny. And as much as i want to say that im walking away from you and your fucking mind games I can't. But I'll lett you one thing right now, I will not let you anywhere near my best firend. I will steak my life on it. And I will guard her heart like nothing eles. She deserves so much better then you. And so do I, but I can't help it... and sometimes i think i would rather be goudging out my eyes. But somehow I think you are becoming some sort of a security blanket to me. Something that I am acctaly sure of. Im sure you will never care for my the way that i care for you, and I am sure that I was just used... But at least I'm sure of it.. one of the very few things i am acctaly sure about anymore is one of the tings that make me hurt most.

Thank you and I hate to love you... but I love to hate you.

-Broken and scared.