Its over. As in for good. And now im left to defend for myself in this ocean of tears i've cried. My ship has sunk and im going down with it, slowly, but most surely. It hurts to know what we (or at least i) broke through all barriers and walls that stood around me for to so shortly after have them be built up... One month without walls was hardly enough.

Im getting used to seeing the back of heads...

im so sorry for being myself* but i just wonted it to work out for us.I always wondered what you could have possibly seen in me.. and now it has been made clear. Nothing. I didn't see it coming. We seemed fine. Laughter and the usual as we walked down the hall hand in hand... And then the next minute im getting on the bus trying to fight tears and potential embarrassment. I cried anyway.

When i look at it now i don't know what im more sad about. In the time we were together i got to know you so well.. Or if i want to know you so much more...

1 am reads the clock and i still cant sleep. Laughter and tears love to share the memories.

The time you said i was beautiful and iwanted to break down and cry because your simplest words were the closest thing to perfect i have ever heard... Thinking back now i wonder why you said it.

I was given the chance and mess up. Im aware of this. I feel as though i wasn't ood enough... and only god knows if you care about the superficiality of things or not but im not smart and i couldnt be to save my life, for that i apologize. the lack of intellect might have caused you to lose interest and for that im sorry for myself.

This is where injustice meets reality.. and grasping it is impossible.



*selfish.