Was it me? ...
Of course it was me. it couldnt be anyone eles except me...
It was a certain thought.
Maybe if i was a little more galmorous.
maybe if i lost those extra pounds like i had promised myself.
maybe if I was that much smarter,
or maybe... maybe if i wasnt so damn attached.
was it something i did? or said?
no.. it was something i didnt do...
i never told you how much you ever meant,
and not that it matters.. or really ever did,
for the words "I love you" never escaped my lips [while you were in ear shot]

then a certain sickness ran through what used to be veins.