It's so ironic that something so perfect and beautiful could have lead to so much hurt and pain.
trust is nothing to play with, and is very fragile. Although I yearn to fix things, my heart needs to heal...
but best friends don't back down that easy. im here for you because no matter what you have done to me, im willing to over see it, and I want your friendship back.. And not only want, but need.
I know I have also upset you, but its you and me. That's what its about, my trust, and your insecurities.
we promised we would love until the world fell apart, and trust me when I say I love you with all my heart. I need things to be right. We deserve it.
we don't need a relationship... We both know we love each other in a way much deeper and important than that.
im not compleltly happy what who and what I am right now, causing you pain has never been on my list of priorities... Although moving on is.
its hard to believe that you are the one who made me the strong, confident person I am today... You helped me walk away from situations I wanted to hold on to so badly for the hope that maybe they might last... Or become something more, when you knew better. I was blinded by the attention.. And you guided me to realize that people don't love me for who I am.. But what I am. And I am stronger because of you.
and because of you I am able to walk away from this painful situation without you being my crutch. You made me stones and able to realize that love isn't always enough. You need trust. And sometimes you need the physical.
I wonder if you regret making me a stronger person who was able to walk away from this. Form you. From infidelity. And lies.
im sorry im hurting you, my bestfriend a soul mate. I am. But I need to move on and be happy. I need to forget to be able to forgive.

please allow me the time.